One great day and a half dozen donuts later gives you enough stamina to dwell on your pain.. to think just how few of these great days you actually have. The kind of days that everything seems to go right and nothing seems to bother you, the days where you are genuinely happy and enjoying life and not feeling like you are just living it. The days that are slow, where you have nowhere to go, nothing to do but take care of 2 little humans and that makes you feel nothing but complete joy. Is it me or are the behaviors of people around me different? Is it that there are less problems and tantrums that day or is it how I react to them that makes it so different. I can’t really seem to find the answer. But I know I don’t need an answer, because the craving for those days is so great that I will enjoy the process of figuring out how to recreate them every single day.

Day by day we spend searching for something, waiting for something ‘fun & exciting’ to happen, waiting for the weekend because somehow that’s the only time you know you’ll enjoy yourself, waiting for that moment when your life is finally at a stand still and you have everything you ever wanted.. but then what? Is that enough? Did you learn anything along the way? Did you make a difference or feel like you had a purpose? Is there such thing as reaching your destination in life or is it the process, the steps, the travel per se that makes life worth living and being excited for?

That’s when weeks, months, and even years pass you by. Day by day nothing seems to change, but when you look back everything is so different.

There is nothing I enjoy more than spending time with my boys. I hear it all the time; enjoy them while they’re little, they grow so fast but they truly do! I work a lot, so I miss a lot. But I don’t dwell on that at all.. for me it’s a working balance. I do believe it makes me a better mom on most days. Not when they are home sick and I have to be at work though! Also I think it’s important for my kids to see that my hubs and I are working hard for this family and therefore can’t be with them every single moment. It’s good for them to be with others and have a change in routine.

Our days together we try to go out and just do anything but sit home. It is difficult sometimes because between thier nap times I feel like I have a solid 2 hour period where we try to cram in as much fun stuff as we can. This past Friday we went to our local cider mill, got some donuts and cider and just let the kids wander around. So simple but definitely made us happy. ♥︎